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My Mystic Experiences
by Deva on Sun Jun 29, 2008 5:58 am
I only have two experiences to relate:
The first is almost impossible to describe in words. I was about 15 years old at the time so this is a long time ago, but it made such an impression that I have never forgotton it. I was laying in bed, in the dark thinking about death. I was really determined to see if I could discover what death was. Then - this is the strange part - my person seemed to actually separate into two parts - the "I" and the "me". The "me" was the part that was causing all the problems. When I was only the "I" it was as if I were indestructible, nothing could touch me. Then suddenly the "I" and the "me" came together again and I remember thinking "I am me". Then it ended completely and it was such a terrifying thing to me that "I was equivelent to "me." I felt like I was completely trapped in my body and that I needed to be somewhere else. So it ended in despair although it started out joyfully.
I have never felt anything like that since. In thinking about it later, I am convinced I was in an altered state of consciousness. I don't know if anything I have written in the above paragraph makes sense, but its as close as I can come to describing it. I think I may have shared this with only one or two people in my life since it was just so strange. And no, I was not on any drugs either.
I think it was also during this time I had really begun to question the Baptist Christianity I was brought up in. It didn't seem real to me so perhaps at the time I was trying to find out myself what reality was.
The other incident happened only about a year ago in my home. I woke up in the middle of the night to find a woman standing by my bed. I wasn't alarmed for some reason. My parents were visiting me at the time and so I naturally thought it was my mother who had decided to get up and go into the bathroom (which adjoins my bedroom). The door was not locked so maybe that was why I wasn't afraid. It gradually dawns on me as I am looking at this person that it isn't my mother at all. It looked nothing like her. The face of the strange woman was turned away from me and so I never saw it. It was a rather large person, with long black hair. I saw her clothing in detail - a long dress or skirt. As I was looking at her, she faded before my eyes. I then realized I had seen an apparition.
Both these experinces are as real as anything I have ever seen or experienced.
The first is almost impossible to describe in words. I was about 15 years old at the time so this is a long time ago, but it made such an impression that I have never forgotton it. I was laying in bed, in the dark thinking about death. I was really determined to see if I could discover what death was. Then - this is the strange part - my person seemed to actually separate into two parts - the "I" and the "me". The "me" was the part that was causing all the problems. When I was only the "I" it was as if I were indestructible, nothing could touch me. Then suddenly the "I" and the "me" came together again and I remember thinking "I am me". Then it ended completely and it was such a terrifying thing to me that "I was equivelent to "me." I felt like I was completely trapped in my body and that I needed to be somewhere else. So it ended in despair although it started out joyfully.
I have never felt anything like that since. In thinking about it later, I am convinced I was in an altered state of consciousness. I don't know if anything I have written in the above paragraph makes sense, but its as close as I can come to describing it. I think I may have shared this with only one or two people in my life since it was just so strange. And no, I was not on any drugs either.
I think it was also during this time I had really begun to question the Baptist Christianity I was brought up in. It didn't seem real to me so perhaps at the time I was trying to find out myself what reality was.
The other incident happened only about a year ago in my home. I woke up in the middle of the night to find a woman standing by my bed. I wasn't alarmed for some reason. My parents were visiting me at the time and so I naturally thought it was my mother who had decided to get up and go into the bathroom (which adjoins my bedroom). The door was not locked so maybe that was why I wasn't afraid. It gradually dawns on me as I am looking at this person that it isn't my mother at all. It looked nothing like her. The face of the strange woman was turned away from me and so I never saw it. It was a rather large person, with long black hair. I saw her clothing in detail - a long dress or skirt. As I was looking at her, she faded before my eyes. I then realized I had seen an apparition.
Both these experinces are as real as anything I have ever seen or experienced.
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